“Whatever negative things people think and say about you is enough to bring you down provided you belief that it carries a weight that can push you hard. Don’t agree to accept what critics say; be prepared to silence them by doing what they think you can’t do!”― Israelmore Ayivor
The past few days have been as lovely as my outfit today. See my actual feels in the pictures below: 😂
I have so many things in my head that I’d really love to share with you at the moment but I just can’t find the right words to begin with. I think I would start it by giving you a little background of my life way back then.
As you all know, I’ve been living independently since I was 18. From only P500 (10 €) in my pocket, I was able to grow this money all by myself. To cut the story short, I was lucky enough I succeeded. Not everyone who came from the province is able to have a good life in the big city, most especially if it’s in the metropolitan area. And I’m beyond grateful of that. But as bipolar as I am, my life was a constant battle with my own self. I wasn’t happy with my environment. I wanted a fresh start. I wanted to get away from my city life, away from toxic place and people. I felt like there was always something that’s missing or that’s wrong. So, I entertained these doors of opportunities that came my way. Unfortunately, I was not lucky enough and I failed to find the right key to open one of these doors that might take me somewhere else. I was in the verge of losing hope so I created a second plan. It was the same plan but without leaving my homeland. But you know life can be really playful. On the day when I started the Step 1 of my alternative plan, I met Daria. And the rest as you all know was history.
As mentioned above, moving to a new place and starting a new life was my biggest plan. And now that I’m finally here, I am not going to waste a single moment. I started with Step 1 again a few days ago and I was lucky enough to get a good answer. I squeezed my little brain and applied my basic German to create that inquiry email. Added to that was a support I got from another friend. I think I remember someone who questioned my ability to do things ‘alone’. It was quite painful for me because she should know that I could, because she’s a friend, right? Unless she doesn’t believe in me? Also, I think no one among my closest friends have ever doubted my capabilities to do things. Because they knew me from the very beginning as a strong woman, despite of my crazy days. And this one friend? I think she’s fond of misleading me. And she thinks that I don’t know it because I’m still treating her nice. I’ve been to this kind of situation a couple of times and I perfectly know where it’s going… and how to handle this (see picture below😜)
It’s a little sad but I don’t care that much anymore. Meanwhile, I’m so excited to finish my German language, to travel to PH and start my new journey next year. It’s something that will really surprise everyone! I can’t wait!!! ❤
On the other hand, today’s outfit features this overly gorgeous Off Shoulder Button Up Sunflower Dress from Zaful. I swear to Mother Earth that I can wear this dress everyday! It’s so beautiful! I was absolutely in love the moment I fit it on. I felt like I was transformed into an absolute goddess! ❤